I ain't settling for Less
because less does not exist in my vocabs
I ain't settling for Less
when there is more to life
I ain't settling for Less
because Less is a life long regret
I ain't settling for Less
because Less cannot dig deep into my soul
Less cannot feel my pain let alone comprehend my dreams
the thought of Less is sickening to my stomach
Less can't pray with me
Less can't carry my vision
Less can't carry a conversation
Less just doesn't work .
Thursday, April 28, 2011
do you exist?
My true love
You are all I ever dreamed about
You are self-less and sacrificial
You care for the orphans and the less-privileged
You stand up for truth and justice
You put others ahead of you
My true Love
Your lips are full of truth
It makes me want to kiss you always
Your heart is right with God
Your heart is in the right places
Oh my true love
You revere above gold -the woman who fears the Lord
You are not carried away by the temporal pleasures of life
My true love,
handsome and blameless ,
My true love faithful and trustworthy
My true love , a role model to our children
My true love , oh my true love
But do you exist? ? ?
From : do you exist?
You are all I ever dreamed about
You are self-less and sacrificial
You care for the orphans and the less-privileged
You stand up for truth and justice
You put others ahead of you
My true Love
Your lips are full of truth
It makes me want to kiss you always
Your heart is right with God
Your heart is in the right places
Oh my true love
You revere above gold -the woman who fears the Lord
You are not carried away by the temporal pleasures of life
My true love,
handsome and blameless ,
My true love faithful and trustworthy
My true love , a role model to our children
My true love , oh my true love
But do you exist? ? ?
From : do you exist?
my- ex
why do you want me back?
Why do you want me back?
Don't you get it, I have moved on.
I thought you didn't want me
I thought I wasn't your type
So your new girl has absconded?
Do I look like trash or what?
Go for her , I deserve to be the first choice
Listen,I now love myself
I 'd rather be alone than experience another heart ache from you
No more lies!
I don't believe your lies !!
I deserve better.
I'd rather be alone than with you .
I'd rather speak to myself than rekindle the emotional connection I thought we had
I now know the difference between love and lust
love trusts, love never fails
lust is about yourself, your needs
You don't even care about how I feel
Have a nice life
I have moved on.
from : single and sassy.
Why do you want me back?
Don't you get it, I have moved on.
I thought you didn't want me
I thought I wasn't your type
So your new girl has absconded?
Do I look like trash or what?
Go for her , I deserve to be the first choice
Listen,I now love myself
I 'd rather be alone than experience another heart ache from you
No more lies!
I don't believe your lies !!
I deserve better.
I'd rather be alone than with you .
I'd rather speak to myself than rekindle the emotional connection I thought we had
I now know the difference between love and lust
love trusts, love never fails
lust is about yourself, your needs
You don't even care about how I feel
Have a nice life
I have moved on.
from : single and sassy.
the thoughts of an evangelist: the wounded heart
the thoughts of an evangelist: the wounded heart: "Oh my ! its happened again !! and I am all alone!!! He told me that I was so beautiful . He told me that he loved me. He said that he wou..."
the wounded heart
Oh my ! its happened again !! and I am all alone!!!
He told me that I was so beautiful .
He told me that he loved me.
He said that he would die without me
We texted back and forth
His voice was the first thing I heard every morning
But o it can't be!
I thought last night would bring us closer together
He took me to another level with his soft kisses and reassuring words
His hands gently feeling all my contours
My chest flat on his chest ,
our ties rubbing against each other
I knew we were made to be with each other forever
But its been two weeks now and he hasn't returned my calls
He says that he is busy at work
The last time I called, a woman picked it up
When would I stop believing lies
When would I stop letting my guard down only to be disapointed
When would I stop believing in a lie
When would I learn to love my self
from the wounded heart.
He told me that I was so beautiful .
He told me that he loved me.
He said that he would die without me
We texted back and forth
His voice was the first thing I heard every morning
But o it can't be!
I thought last night would bring us closer together
He took me to another level with his soft kisses and reassuring words
His hands gently feeling all my contours
My chest flat on his chest ,
our ties rubbing against each other
I knew we were made to be with each other forever
But its been two weeks now and he hasn't returned my calls
He says that he is busy at work
The last time I called, a woman picked it up
When would I stop believing lies
When would I stop letting my guard down only to be disapointed
When would I stop believing in a lie
When would I learn to love my self
from the wounded heart.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Grieving the Holyspirit.
My experience in various churches has made me conclude that " God is not in most churches" . I just know deep down that the Holy spirit has left many churches. First , we must realize that as born again Christians, " we are the church" . The Holy spirit dwells on the inside of us. We must renew our minds on a daily basis. The emptiness and dryness in most churches gives me a sick feeling deep down. I know that there got to be more than what I am seeing and feeling but "they can't do it " and "I can't do it". The Holyspirit has been given a backseat in most churches because of
1. Flesh is ruling: Where there is quarrelling , gossip, backstabbing and jealousy, the Spirit of God cannot flow freely
2. Church Politics:This is a big one. Church politics occurs in various ways
a. quenching the anointing in the lives of others by frustrating them
b. when leaders feel threatened by upcoming ministers and evangelists so they try to silence them
c. When people start favoring one leader above another instead of looking to Christ alone
3.Focus on man instead of God: Many pastors care more about what the people are saying than about what God is saying. They have been reduced to "Muppet pastors" because of "i don't want my financial members to leave the church"
4. Closed thinking: When members like "same old, same old" . They are not open to new ideas that would foster spiritual growth. They control the church and the pastor
5. Doubt: Jesus could not do many miracles among his people because of the doubt in their minds. Doubt can tie up the anointing big time. Even Jesus could not operate freely.
6. Control : Many leaders have a genuine concern about excesses so they attempt to stop any supernatural claims . They discourage the gift of prophecy etc.
7 . Activity Spirit: I enjoy church activities and meetings. But when a church focuses more on activities than on personal devotion, the church leaders may be spending most of their time in church instead of in the closet with God. The result is that their sermons may become shallow. Someone once said that a 30minute sermon would require about 8 hours of preparation. Remember Jesus often spent all night with God on the mountains.
How can we see a restoration in our churches .
1. fasting: It is a good idea for "hungry Christians" to tune out of every distraction and fall on their faces to seek the Creator. fasting will open our spiritual eyes. It kills the flesh in us and gives rise to the Spirit man.
2. Meditation: We must spend quality time in renewing our minds through the Word of God. I remember a week that I dedicated to reading my Bible .I read about 60 chapters in one day .I experienced an open Heaven.
3. forgiving others: As we seek God, our hearts are softened to ignore offenses and forgiveness is easier. Unforgiveness blocks the flow of the anointing.
In conclusion, church is a 90% spiritual work and 10 % physical work. If we are going to see the outpouring that was prophesied in the book of Joel 2:28 , we must repent of our lukewarmness so that we can experience a time of refreshing in the presence of the Lord.
1. Flesh is ruling: Where there is quarrelling , gossip, backstabbing and jealousy, the Spirit of God cannot flow freely
2. Church Politics:This is a big one. Church politics occurs in various ways
a. quenching the anointing in the lives of others by frustrating them
b. when leaders feel threatened by upcoming ministers and evangelists so they try to silence them
c. When people start favoring one leader above another instead of looking to Christ alone
3.Focus on man instead of God: Many pastors care more about what the people are saying than about what God is saying. They have been reduced to "Muppet pastors" because of "i don't want my financial members to leave the church"
4. Closed thinking: When members like "same old, same old" . They are not open to new ideas that would foster spiritual growth. They control the church and the pastor
5. Doubt: Jesus could not do many miracles among his people because of the doubt in their minds. Doubt can tie up the anointing big time. Even Jesus could not operate freely.
6. Control : Many leaders have a genuine concern about excesses so they attempt to stop any supernatural claims . They discourage the gift of prophecy etc.
7 . Activity Spirit: I enjoy church activities and meetings. But when a church focuses more on activities than on personal devotion, the church leaders may be spending most of their time in church instead of in the closet with God. The result is that their sermons may become shallow. Someone once said that a 30minute sermon would require about 8 hours of preparation. Remember Jesus often spent all night with God on the mountains.
How can we see a restoration in our churches .
1. fasting: It is a good idea for "hungry Christians" to tune out of every distraction and fall on their faces to seek the Creator. fasting will open our spiritual eyes. It kills the flesh in us and gives rise to the Spirit man.
2. Meditation: We must spend quality time in renewing our minds through the Word of God. I remember a week that I dedicated to reading my Bible .I read about 60 chapters in one day .I experienced an open Heaven.
3. forgiving others: As we seek God, our hearts are softened to ignore offenses and forgiveness is easier. Unforgiveness blocks the flow of the anointing.
In conclusion, church is a 90% spiritual work and 10 % physical work. If we are going to see the outpouring that was prophesied in the book of Joel 2:28 , we must repent of our lukewarmness so that we can experience a time of refreshing in the presence of the Lord.
I am jealous of my guest minister
I know the topic sounds crazy but this is a big deal in a lot of churches. I visited a church in Maryland a couple of years ago. Various pastors preached including the host pastor whom I will call Sam. A pastor that I would call Jake* preached and there was a standing ovation. People dropped money at pastor Jake's feet . The wife of the host pastor whom I will call Sam* also dropped money at Pastor Jake's feet. Now, Pastor Sam came back to the mike and was very upset. He said that " he shall not preach anymore until money is dropped at his feet". So, church members had to drop money for him.
I have noticed that many of us Christians including myself have a tendency to favor a guest minister over our pastors. We forget that
1. Our pastors arw usually the first people we call when we have problems
2. Our pastors have worked very hard to set the foundation of the church
3 Without our pastors, there would be "no church "
4. Our receptivity affects the effectiveness of our pastors.
A Word to Pastors.
I encourage my fellow counterparts in ministry to realize that nobody can take their pulpits away from them. Learn to become secure in yourself. It is okay for someone to be doing better than you . It is all about the salvation of souls not the boosting your ego. John the baptist understood that he must decrease while Jesus increased ( John 3:30). There was no competition because he understood that every man's ministry was given from above. Paul and Apollos worked as a team. ( I corithians 3:6) . Therefore , we must keep an open mind in order to be effective leaders.
So, I encourage churches to continue to welcome guest pastors but above all we must respect and pray for our pastors.
Guest pastors should learn to acknowledge the host pastor . They must refrain from criticizing the host pastor from the pulpit.
Thank you.
*not real names
I have noticed that many of us Christians including myself have a tendency to favor a guest minister over our pastors. We forget that
1. Our pastors arw usually the first people we call when we have problems
2. Our pastors have worked very hard to set the foundation of the church
3 Without our pastors, there would be "no church "
4. Our receptivity affects the effectiveness of our pastors.
A Word to Pastors.
I encourage my fellow counterparts in ministry to realize that nobody can take their pulpits away from them. Learn to become secure in yourself. It is okay for someone to be doing better than you . It is all about the salvation of souls not the boosting your ego. John the baptist understood that he must decrease while Jesus increased ( John 3:30). There was no competition because he understood that every man's ministry was given from above. Paul and Apollos worked as a team. ( I corithians 3:6) . Therefore , we must keep an open mind in order to be effective leaders.
So, I encourage churches to continue to welcome guest pastors but above all we must respect and pray for our pastors.
Guest pastors should learn to acknowledge the host pastor . They must refrain from criticizing the host pastor from the pulpit.
Thank you.
*not real names
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